Absence = Fondness

So, our journey has continued over the past several months, even though I have been absent from the blogging world. Hopefully, you won't take my absence personally since even if I wasn't writing, I was still reading about the journeys of all my wonderful IF friends.  Honestly, falling off the radar is just a poor coping skill that I seem to implement when I am feeling overwhelmed and I am in need of time to sort through all my crazy thoughts. Typically, I come back rested and rejuvenated but if I am honest I know it's pretty selfish that I often disappear from real life, friends, and now my virtual world. Yet, somehow I think the blog-o-sphere might be more forgiving than my real life friends.

Anyway, a lot has happened and honestly it has all been positive progress towards our future family. After the adoption conference, we decided to continue with IVF pre-req testing so that regardless of what we ultimately decided, we would be moving forward. We met with the RE, did blood work, gave samples, and tried to cram as much medical "diagnosis testing" into the last quarter of the year as possible. All in an attempt to move forward and hopefully get insurance to cover a few things before a new deductible year. 

During this time, we also continued to talk with our family about our struggles to conceive. We spoke more openly with our parents and we confided in our siblings that we were planning to move forward sooner than later. It felt good to share openly and everyone was incredibly supportive. It was also nice to move into the holidays with everyone aware of our situation, thereby preventing the awkward family moments when someone would previously make a comment about our future children someday being there to open gifts.

Now, moving into 2012 things have continued to move in the direction of IVF (reasons for our IVF decision will have to be addressed in another post, because it's just too complicated to start tongiht). I feel good about our decision and I am truly hopeful for our future. I feel like we are coping well, we are surrounded by incredible support systems, and God is opening every door that will lead us to an incredible future that he has planned for us.

Last but not least, I am making a commitment to blog more. I know I said initially I did not want this blog to be a commitment (which obviously it hasn't since I haven't blogged since November) but I think I have changed my mind. I want to document our journey. I want a space where I can look back and see how crazy it was and how far we have come. I also need to write it all down so in the future when I am worn out from caring for my IVF triplets, I will remain forever grateful for what it took to get there. 

So stay tuned...details from IVF class are just around the corner...

jenn